"I must keep reminding myself of this"
Falling off the path is not an option, it is guaranteed.
The past week has been very tough.
I have been through a very dark moment.
One of these occasions when everything seems to fall apart.
I was negative.
Unable to see a clear path ahead.
Since all looked dark. Uncertain. Trembling.
No clarity on the next steps.
Doubts on the past ones.
Uncertainty on my coaching path.
Questioning myself on my writing journey.
Unclear on how to get back to some form of stable income.
Then I have remembered.
That I have been in this situation already.
It was September last year.
And I felt stuck.
All new options were long-term projects.
Requiring experiments, trainings and network building.
While dealing with a deep sense of uncertainty.
How did I get back on track?
I have simply followed an advice:
“In doubt, just do”
I have started writing full time.
I have begun my coaching course.
I have onboarded new coaching clients.
I have figured out that I like teaching and coaching.
That I would like to make a living out of the content I produce and the expertise I have developed.
That I prefer to have an impact on individuals, rather than solely on organisations.
So, why am I writing this now?
Since I have forgotten.
I have forgotten that the solution existed already.
And that I had written about it.
That’s why today I have booked calls with the people that help me in these moments.
I have offered my coaching hours to more people (feel free to reach out to give it a try!).
I have started writing again.
I have begun looking for teaching engagements.
So, this is why I am writing this.
Because “I must keep reminding myself of this”1.
That I know all this.
That there will be more dark moments.
And that I am more and more equipped to face them.
Since the crisis that lasted one month in September, might have just taken one week this time.
Because wisdom compounds over time.
Because lessons get absorbed.
And writing allows me to have easy access to my forgotten memories.
So, please, be kind with yourself when you repeat the same mistakes.
And remember you are not alone in this.
As you scroll through my newly rediscovered lesson archive!
Have a gentle journey,
— Livio
08/01/2023
This is a quote from The Patient, one of my favourite song of the band The Tool. The author reminds himself to be patient as he engages in his life path, since there will be rewards to reap. Acknowledging he might as well surrender, give up and discontinue it at any time.
Writing is a good thing. Someday we may speak of you only as Livio, like we do of other great Latin writers, Cicero, Seneca, and Marcus Aurelius. Of course, that is not the reason to write. Write to be awake to the world, and share your insight with others. This a worthy path of a writer.
Keep writing Livio, your words continue to inspire many people. Stay on the path!