I remember when I decided to take a career break.
The decision came after a long process of self discovery. After looking straight at my fears. After looking at how much I needed rest. And surrendering to the fact that I really had no choice.
The decision was taken.
Now I just had to talk about it at work.
To get involved in the practicalities of the decision.
That’s when doubts started to emerge again.
Was I really doing the right choice?
Did it make sense to abandon my path and face the unknown?
Was I being truthful to myself, or I was just escaping from adult life?
I was going back to start.
After months of reflections, I was again challenging my original decision.
I was being risk adverse. Stepping back. Giving up to my fears.
And letting them define my path.
How was I able to get back to my original choice?
To regain trust in my intuition?
To start a new, exciting phase?
In a few ways.
I. The first was talking
By voicing my worries.
By asking trusted people to listen to my doubts.
By letting the truth be expressed.
II. The second was writing
By allowing my feelings to freely flow on paper.
The thoughts to be organised.
The worries to have a safe space to be expressed and confronted.
III. The third was being present
By connecting with my intuition.
By grounding. By engaging in mindfulness activities.
By relaxing my body so that my mind could relax too.
In short, by not thinking too much at the decision I was about to make.
By trusting the flow of events completely.
By giving attention to the worries, while stopping the intellectual mind from getting lost in abstract pros and cons.
By focusing on being present with what was going on in my body and heart, while giving less space to the mind to ruminate.
To then acquire clarity. And presence.
That is what has helped me to stick to my original decision.
To find the courage to trust myself.
And I hope that it is what might help you too, one day.
Whatever your majour life decision will be.
Have a good trustful day,
— Livio
27/07/2022
P.s.: I am sharing my experience on making decisions and finding my life path in the face of high uncertainty. Like or subscribe to follow my journey and learn from my mistakes ;)
There is no right or wrong at every turn. Rather than looking back to wonder where the other path would have lead, why not look forward and show us where this path would go?